2002-09-16
the responsibility
the one who is tired and will stay mundane
I have been sitting nicely and calm at my house in Terengganu for the past 2 days with the floor plan does not seems to be missed around. Me dad is planning to work on something with the house and yes..its not for the wedding, its more for more family purposes, we wanna make a prayer hall with a small room attached, as dad was telling, his child was no longer his small kids, soon everyone will statrt their own love. He wants to devote more time to the God and the Ibadah. He wants to spent more time at home. So he wants to remodel the house. So, we tried to work on it and yeah, it might be an adavantage if the plan will completed before the Big day, but as i told him before i start my journey back to KL last nite, do not bother much, save ur money first, i will try to help by all means.
enuff about it, frankly speaking these days i feel the responsible of being the eldest in the family. Even till this moments, i still once in a while sleep on my parents lap and so..yeah..its not funny but its true, but i do feel i have the responbility to ensure that both of my parents can at least feel secured and happy with their condition. I might not have to be worry as both of them working, they earn their fixed salary every months, they have their pension and also KWSP money to survive, but hey...its not only money the guarantee of happiness.
I need to think some strategy, i dun want both of them stay in the big house by themselves later. I need to talk to my siblings. And lucky enuff, my second sister already telling she wants to live in Terengganu, but that;s all what we said plan. Things might change. Let just hope for the best of everyone.
I cant bear sitting and typing this entry any longer. I have a terrible back pain. Will update later..Adieu!
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kaezrin at 12:00 p.m.