2004-12-16
stressed up
I was having a pretty stressful day at work yesterday. With my reports, closing market, meetings, briefing and etc. Once the clock strike 6pm, I decided to call the day off even in the first place I thought of staying back lil bit and at least start on 40% of the next report. I just need to get the hell out of the office and stop staring at my numbers and words.
What I need, would be a perfect evening at home with my son and double bonus if my hubby is back from work. Yet, hubby called and inform will only be back after 830 or 9pm. Yucks, Well, its fine, khilfi will still be around, and I promised myself to forget about work thingie from that moment and had a good snuggling session with my boy.
Upon reaching home, I saw him nicely sitting in front of the tv, watching the cartoon. Pick him up(still in my tudungs and all), brought him to the kitchen coz I need a glass of water, very thirsty then my FIL approach me, and he picks khilfi from me and told me he wanna bring khilfi out. I feel the depression again.
They went out at 645 freakin hour. It’s the 3rd day in a row. Once I arrived, the in laws will go out. With khilfi tagging along. I just feelat the top of my depression state. It can be like this. I called my hubby and break down with tears. I just said, I want my son and hang up.
I went upstairs, had shower and lay on my bed. Then I started thinking straight again. Maybe the in laws just wanna give me a break to settle down for a while, u know, had shower and all first. But its doesn’t have to be this obvious like. At least lemme gomol him for a while or what, and why must it mesti time nak maghrib they wanna go out.
It got me all upside down lah last nite. I confronted hubby last nite. I dun mind if they wanna bring efi’s out but pls make it more rationale or something. AT least let him shower and had his dose of milk for a while and pls, can it just wait say lepas maghrib. The other noght is more worst case thing. Its already 930at nite, and the inlaws insisting of bringing khilfi to send my BIL#1 to shah alam. For god sake, its qute far and khilfi already sleepy at that time. Trues enuff, they happily called us after 20 minuets journey, efi dah tido.
Well, isnt it better if his sleeping in his crib and all?
Maybe I am just stressed up…………..
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kaezrin at 12:29 p.m.